On being born in between holidays.

It's a bit tedious; having your birthday, Christmas, and the end of the year fall in so closely to one another. No matter how cliche, you cannot help but reminisce, picking apart and dissecting your year as it played out. The bad, the good; old habits die hard. Among all of the self criticizing comes the pressing realization that i’ve yet another year to add- another decade to conquer; another building block on my [somehow] faithfully sturdy structure. I’d like to think that i’ve learned some things this year, that i’ve grown from what i’ve done. No regrets, no takebacks. I can’t pretend to have an idea of what my life is going to hold, or anticipate what mess i’ll make of this seeming “blank slate” everyone hopes to start out with on January 1st. I don’t know much about what impact i’ll make on this next year, or what it will mold me into. I’m not sure what tastes i’ll acquire, or what lives I will change. Not knowing is so humbling and exciting at the same time. Right now, I guess it doesn’t really matter if I know the answers. 

I do know this,

There are still people out there who love me.

I still love avocado & tomato sandwiches and reading fiction.

Last night I fell asleep watching James and the Giant Peach,

and tomorrow is my twentieth birthday.

Merry Christmas, Happy New Year, Bring it on, 2009. 

On attempting to not be a scrooge.

Lately, i've really had some difficulties getting into the holiday spirit. It's been hot outside, which has made my frantic Christmas shopping experiences all but enjoyable. I felt like I needed a little somethin'-somethin' to cure me of my slowly-turning-scrooge syndrome. My mother suggested we have a day full of baking; we each picked a cookie and took turns in the kitchen. I got right onto the Food Network's website, naturally and picked out yummy pumpkin cookies with cream cheese frosting. After all was said and done, and after somehow getting pumpkin on my face only twice, my grumpiness toned down and the cookies turned out sooo tasty! David, (who for some reason, despite my mood volunteered to be my assistant in the kitchen for the day) helpfully offered to help clean up my mess.

Post-Script:  I have way, way too many! Open invitation to anyone who would like to help me finish 'em off :)

On spending an afternoon at the park.

It's good to have days off. They have been seeming so few and far between these days. Today I woke up early, went to the park with my sister and nephew and read in the beautiful "Florida winter" weather. Did I mention I love reading? Well, I do. A lot.

On being a reader of [good] books most of the time

These past two weeks have been times in which I was in dire need for distraction from my life. Naturally, when my sisters recommended a book series, I was all ears. Four books could keep me busy all month! [Perhaps more, I thought] Little did I know how amazingly similar to a heroin addiction they would turn out to be for my brain, and how fast it would devour them. 

The Twilight series started as my really great guilty pleasure. I was hesitant to tell people I was reading the first book, seeing how I pride myself in being an avid reader of great books. I didn’t want my impressive taste to appear as any less. I couldn’t help myself, after about the fifth chapter- I was hooked. I read whenever I could fit time in to read, and when I wasn’t reading; I was anxiously watching the clock and counting down the hours until I could. I was helplessly addicted. [Forgive my understatement, those who had any contact with me in the past two weeks.] The characters and scenarios were all I could think about, all I wanted to talk about- and I am ever so grateful that I wasn’t alone in this obsession. 

My older sister Kimberley [who’s book taste is even better than mine] and I talked about it whenever we could- our every three day sleepover turned into Twilight talking sessions. When I was at work, she would call to tell me she had reached the part I was up to, and it made me anxious and upset that I couldn’t answer her every phone call- ( though sometimes I made frequent trips to the “bathroom” to quickly discuss it with her and get my fill of the eerily drug-like addiction.) We had many laughs and shed many tears over the story we continued to read. It was clear that this was so much more than a guilty pleasure to me. These were really, really good books. 

After two weeks (after finishing the first two books in two days or less, I stretched the last two out as much as I could) of being completely and hopelessly involved in every character and every aspect of the story, I am not ashamed to say that was the most enthralling book series i’ve ever read. (Even after countless eye-rolls and negative comments thrown my way when I struggled to find words to describe what the books were about) After reading all of the books (and seeing the movie, twice- for which I am also not ashamed to say) I can definitely and proudly say I am- in all aspects of the word- a “twilighter.” I will not hide that fact, or be shamed by it, and I suggest you go read them! Now! Guaranteed- you, too will regress into pre-teen obsession, and it’s not so bad of a feeling. :)

Life's too short for the wrong job...

....so I'm quitting mine. Hoorah!

I'm worth my weight in potting soil.

I was tagged (finally!) by my sister Kimberley to give 7 random facts about myself. After a long excruciating (nearly ten hour!) work day, I thought i'd lay down in my warm comfy bed and comply. 

So, enjoy:

1. I'm named (in part) after my aunt Rose, my grandmother's sister- who cursed like a sailor and had severe road rage. My mother loved her, she died of cancer young.

2. In regards to toasting, [bread, bagels, etc] I prefer it to be extra toasted and crunchy - almost burnt. I refuse to bother with any of that "lightly toasted" business.

3. I live for awkward moments. Sometimes I make them occur accidentally on purpose just so I can soak it all in.

4. If my mind is not busy, often I subconsciously imagine myself biting into random materials. Mostly styrofoam or silverwear. I'm getting the chills just thinking about it.

5. I am a firm believer in the fact that if you can't be a good example- you have an obligation to be a horrible warning.

6. I worry sometimes that I won't get to live up to my full potential, and that my future english degree will only come in handy when smart-asses try to correct my grammar at parties. I don't want my brain to go to waste like it has been in retail the past few years.

7. The thing I remember most about my grandmother is the way she made her eggs in the morning, and the way she used to chew. I hope I never forget her entirely.

I'm going to tag Steven, David, and Sarah. They may not do it- but they haven't posted anything in a while and they should. So there.

Yes We Can!

We did this. We really did this. You and I, we made history together. I've never been so proud of us. I've never been so proud to be an American. I don't care how cheesy that sounds. Now is when we start reaching our greatness potential! I'm so excited for our bright future with such an amazing, intellectual, and charismatic man leading us. We did good. :)