Winter dies the same way every spring

I always like to pretend I like movies that don't have happy endings. Most of the time, I prove myself wrong. If there isn't at least a tiny ray of hope shining at me at the end, I am generally displeased. (There are some exceptions, I'm not too awful all the time) Basically, my girlish- heart is so predictable. I've begun to write again, not only for my class, but for myself. It feels nice. My headaches have returned, but I am keeping myself optimistic, (with excedrin migraine in my purse, and sunglasses handy) and have made it my never ending mission to make sure that the only air that enters my lungs is saturated with hope. I like being alive. I like eating egg salad subs from publix, I like buying construction paper in the craft store for clever ideas i'll never carry out, and I will never stop yelling small stories, bad jokes and sorrows, though my voice will ache to yell many more. I like being alive.

also, I just noticed that my last two posts have had pictures of people looking upwards. Weird, huh? I must say, though, I am partial to the one in this post, with backwards binoculars and a backpack. (The cutest nephew this side of the mississippi.)

Nobody writes them like they used to

Frosted Wheats are my favorite cereal. Away from here is my favorite place. I traveled north this weekend with my lovely Rachel Lee to stay up entirely too late and take mediocre pictures. It was most certainly a nice change from doing homework and going to work. In other news... I definitely don't have a tiled picture of John Krasinski as my computer background. I'm going to do something productive during my spring break next week. Maybe.

Knock so I'll know you're still there, half listening, interpreting the air.

I made a goal a few sundays ago to wake up early enough to venture to the farmer's market with my sister and my mother. Of course, I was sleepy- but it's not often that I get to have my say in the picking out of our produce for the week. (It's the little things that do it for me, guys.) I usually just cook with it. I feel like it's cheating to take pictures of pretty produce. It's already delectable-looking, so it doesn't take much of an artistic eye to get a flattering picture of it.

In other news, I like the earth. Though I don't know if anyone realizes how difficult it is to tell grocery stores you do not want a bag. This is not an interesting post. It's all about the produce, peeps.

My war paint is sharpie ink

When I was younger, I went to a lot of summer camps. Mostly, my mother did it to keep my social life interesting during the summer instead of letting me stay inside all day reading about the civil war. She would have me fill out my own forms, and in the "race" column, she would have me check the "other" box and write human in the provided blank. My mother has never liked that question, and I loved the idea. I had all of my friends doing it. We were real activists.

It seems so much easier and more comfortable to be passionate about other people's beliefs when you are younger. My little spongy brain so hungry, so addicted to whatever people I looked up to were feeding it. It's strange when I think about the person i'm molding into. A person able to make their own decisions and follow their own belief system. I think that my sponge has turned into a pretty good head on my shoulders, and my heart is strong and gentle. My thoughts and words are powerful. I like the person i've become. That's such a good feeling.

Hey world, get me love or get me out

I want to live like life's going out of style! I want to quit my job, buy a one way ticket and pick the destination with my eyes closed. I want to live next to the old lady with the yellow cat and kind eyes. I want to bake! I want to take time to fill my lungs when I breathe. I want to be broken, and imperfect, and happy.

It was always the broken hand we learned to lean on after all

I hope that you all woke up this morning healthy and refreshed. I hope that you had cinnamon buns, watched the Macy's Thanksgiving Day parade and watched your mother cry when the Radio City Rockettes came on and kicked their legs. I hope that you got food all over your clothes when you helped your mother with the stuffing at the last minute. I hope that you were impatiently eating appetizers until the last of your family arrived and you could break out the feast. I hope that all you could do was smile when you had filled your stomach to the brim and you had marker all over your hands from the hand turkey you drew on the tablecloth of gratitude. I hope that you are with the people you love, you are listening to your mother scream at the video games on the television, and you are completely content with how your day [and year-for the most part] has gone so far. I hope that you are getting ready for Christmas and thiking about what wonderful presents you're going to get everyone. I hope that you realize that even though your life is hectic, stressful and makes you want to scream sometimes, it will get better soon.

All of this is me. I hope it's you, too.

I smile more when I belong

Pomegranates are in season,
my fingers are stained,
and I am a happy girl!

I've been writing letters and reading pleasant things.
I should be doing homework,
but you would do the same if you knew how charming the weather was! This is weather in which great things should occur.

Now I am living.